you're a mystery yourself

8/22/2009

8/22/2009 08:08:00 MD

...
had the urge to post sth(since it's already more than a month tht i last posted)
but there's nothing much to say):

things just dont turn out the way it seems
and it'll forever be.

i feel cheated sometimes, almost for everything.
recently, i just went to see a dentist, and she charged me an exorbitant price! though the charges were pretty normal, but i somehow couldnt accept their way of works. i have to admit, i'm really slow at realising things.(just have to keep my mouth shut...cant reveal what that'thing' was)and before i knew it, 'ta..da..!' the un-escapable payment...
noooo! i nearly cried when i saw those digits.

someday, i feel exceptionally 'not me', especially this week.
i have no idea why...mood swing??? perhaps so. (: ;D :( T.T

[post written unfinished! no intention to continue...]

&the beauty.

7/07/2009 08:08:00 MD

Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong, even a stopped clock is right twice a day(:

gotten this phrase from the book 'brida'. it's really a nice story, though there were a few parts which bored me out. anyway, i am still reading the book! hahas, it only consists of 200 over pages. and since, i am a slow reader,it still took me about three weeks...before i can finish up reading it.

and yes! school's finally reopened at last! i have been looking forward to it for so long.
but yeah, it can never be the same as before. we had to take precaution against the H1N1 flu, and there were a few reporters in the school as well. what's more, the school bell's changed. and had it changed for the better? i doubt it. it was softer than the usual one though quite soothing. speaking of the word 'soothing', i almost fell asleep during maths lesson again. it's always during maths lesson. jasmine! when can you be 'fully' awake during mr tan's class???

other than that, things went out pretty well.

during chinese lesson, we had to do this mini test worksheet, and read a comprehension passage on people being angry at almost everything. i totally agree with what the writer wrote,'not to fret over so much things'. it's true. i mean our brain has already been used to store information and knowledge. why do we still let our emotions go wild? like what the book 'brida' states: 'emotions are like wild horses'. i guess, we should really learn to let go sometime. we shouldnt let our emotions take a toll on us. they arent worth at all. in the end, we will just be burdened by them. thinking of the problem so often, and not being able to solve it at all. whatever for?
moreover, what's ours will always be ours. no one will take them away from us. we should really be contended with what we have. so far, having lived for fifteen years, i guess there were many a times, i took things for granted, which is why...i have landed myself in such state...

i just hope that by the end of this year, things will look brighter, like those times in the past..

&the beauty.

6/28/2009 08:00:00 MD

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

ahh, cant believe holidays aint over yet! why, why must we leave school for a week? why now? nonono. i want to go school. cant believe i'm going to be stuck at home for another week. please get me out of the house somehow. it's just so freaky. i dont feel like living in it anymore:X

and home-based learning? facing the computer for 5 hours or so? can it get any worse? i just hate e-learning. the computer will start to disobey me after an hour or so, and i will just have to wait and see how the works going to pile up...

all in all, i'm so not looking forward to another week of holiday.

&the beauty.

6/21/2009 08:09:00 MD

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!:D

i guess i'm not the only one facing with problems...
shant try to complain about life...
it's always fair in a sense, i guess:S

so ashamed of what i was once thought...
hated myself for doing so
& was afraid i'd change in personality...
nonono!

struggling for survival

&the beauty.

6/07/2009 08:33:00 MD

uhhh!

additional homework...nonono, that is it!

i'm pretty amazed by my choice of things these days. i simply love cute stuff[adorable but not ugly!] and i long to watch cartoon as well. i feel like turning back time, and experience my childhood years over again. it's just so carefree...and i was really childish...i had so many ideals. i used to want to be a teacher, then, a police, then an actress and singer.[bet you, my singing was horrendous, have no idea why i used to want to be one...]but now, i'm just like a blockhead...

anyway, i have learnt to spoken up...and i pretty proud of myself for that. honestly, i feel i'm naive in quite a number of ways. if not for my sis, i doubt i'll learn how to grow up! i mean when most teenage at this age would have so much to talk about fashion and stuff, i'm simply a noob at it. i confess. i honestly dont dress clothes that's really trendy. i feel weird. i bet most who know me will think the same too. although some clothes look nice, i always think twice[not thrice, i am "very blur"when it comes to buying stuff] and then, i will just pick and choose a cotton shirt in the end. that's simply me. haha, and that's why i always wear the same clothes. i am the opposite of my sister in almost every aspect. when my mum shops with my sis and i, my sis will look into clothes that's quite fashionable. she would indicate clothings which she thinks is nice, but i'll just look at it and say,'your taste doesn't suit me at all'.

hmm, and today, the same event which happen to me before, has befallen[if there's such a word] on my sis...but she receive a fairer treatment than i do. i feel injustified. but, as long as my sis alright, i think it's quite fine with me:D

hahas, signing off then...

&the beauty.

5/30/2009 07:43:00 MD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENMIN!:D

had guzheng today and we celebrated wenmin's birthday. though the [brief ]party was quite fun, there, was a lot of cleaning up to do.

apparently, i'm not in the best of mood today. i think i looked a little blur, as though i have not woken up from my sleep. blur and dreamy. i have no idea what's with me these days. i cannot seem to make firm decision. always getting scolding from my dad for looking distracted. argh! just what's wrong with me!

anyway, this holiday is gonna be a busy one. there are simply so many homework. and, i actually counted them.[must be out of my mind] there is over 20 pieces of work to be done. no rest... no rest...D;

&the beauty.

5/25/2009 07:32:00 MD

i havent been posting very often this year as compared to last year's.
many things happen in just five months...and i was hoping it would end soon..

still, i am sad over several things...it felt as though this year's a year, best...to totally drain out all my energy. there have been misery almost every single day. there isnt one day which i can stay happy throughout. what's more, i've cried at least thrice in school this year. this is utterly embarrassing! i cant believe i can be so soft hearted in school, and especially so at the age of fifteen! okay...nevermind about it...

anyway, during english lesson today, ms chionh told us to write a note to someone whom we want to show gratitude to. she told us that in life, many a times we are busied with stuff and have not had time to think stuff so 'unneccessary' as this. so, she gave us this assignment and expected us to give the letter of gratitude to the person the following day. i took quite a while to do so while others just carried on with their stuff. looking at the way her class behaved, she added that in everyday life, there are surely someone in which we want to show our gratitude to. otherwise, we are known to be an arrogant, self-centered person...

and in fact, though i took quite a while to think, i actually had a number of people in mind whom i want to thank. they are:

my guzheng mates, be it senior or junior
my instructor
friends
my classmates
teachers
the stall vendors in school and outside
my sister
daddy and mummy

(they are not range accordingly)

and last but not least, god,who have journeyed with me thus far and helped me overcome many obstacles. i thank all of you.

ohoh, and i would like to thank cheryl today, for telling me to live life to the fullest.:D

hahas, i'm gonna prepare this letter to this person...i cant believe who the lucky person would be. LOL.

oh...and guzheng got a gold for syf. hahas, afraid i'd forget to post it, just remembered.[21 april 2009];DD

&the beauty.

jasmine tan
typical pisces
born on 04/03/94
15 years old
height of 1.66m[haiz, i shrunk!!!]:)br> weight...hmmm...guess!
ex-student of marymount convent
now in presbyterian high school
currently in class 3 endurance
and am part of the guzheng ensemble!(:

love my friends and family, of course!:D hatehate...hates no one at all(;

travel around the world![:. get at least a merit for guzheng exam. do well in my languages. to have a warm and welcoming home. no more worrying. not to be so sensitive. make more friends((;